screw results

So. Here I am again blogging. I'm bored. Well. Guess where am I? I'm with my 4th aunt, watching my aunt do aerobics.. Its really amusing to watch. Hell others sweat a lot but my aunt wasn't even wet. One is cause she was late, 2nd was her positions also not correct! Hahaha.

This morning dad brought me and mum to dim sum for brunch. Too bad for my meimei cause she's in school. It was super full la. And quite ex? 40bucks for that.

I actually had thot of getting new laptops etc. But aft some stuffs that dad told me. I don't tink so. Even getting the driving license too. Speaking of that, I had 2 driving lessons ! Ytd n today. Quite fun I would say. Make me kinda fascinated over cars. I kinda wanna learn the basics only. Haha. As for the license, maybe see how. And my mum asked if I wanna go overseas for uni.. I'm really considering that. Judging on my lousy yr1 results. At least the comfort is, I did improved. But just gonna work triple hard next sem. And no its not saying only. I'll put one week duration for myself as a proof.

So have been watching mentalist, as introduced. And hor. Its nice but couldn't get me addicted. Secret garden's still da best! And can't believe due to results I woke up at 6am+ and then went back to sleep again.


Ohyeea. Wed nite I went to my meimei's lesson too. She was learning yongchun. Ohyea. Martial arts. Sounds cool but hor, I wonder if u will use it in real life? Right? Haha

Okay gotta go see my little cousin liao.. Anneyong! :D

princess in bali

The power failure really dampen my mood la.. Was happily watching secret garden.. Hyunbin is so freaking handsome. His and ha ji won's acting are really damn good. So damn convinced and the mood really changes by the fluctuations of the drama. Oh well.. Its time to sleep anyw..

Supposedly so what have I really done today? Ohwell.. Catching up on drama. And pei-ed my mei mei to her martial arts class. That girl learning yong chun.. It was kinda cool to see them practising and with the wooden block. But yea. I dno just not practical ba? And my cousin slimmed down due to the weekly trngs.. Which made me missed my wp trngs.. Manz.. Its a long 3wks.. No wonder I'm getting fatter. And oh just first night and I had supper alrd. So fat die me and I went to sing k with my closest cousin(the one who is pregnant) on the first day as well

Next two days was really drama all the way.. Have yet to see another group of cousins. Ohwell.. Slowly la. I still have 1 wk 3days left. Typical. Countdown upon returning to spore and when days get really near. I'll miss staying here. Basically probably due to that I was treated like a princess here, also means growing fats n moulds on my body. Damnnnn.. If only I can eat without growing fat. WAHLAUZ.

Just something bothering me that I'm going back to hometown on 2nd to 4th april but I'm having wp eevent on 4th april and I'm the in charge. Talk bt dilemma huh?

And so.. At least sth to look forward to which is driving tmr.. Ohwell. A lot of peopo ask me what for do I learn driving. Its true. I don't have car etc. But I dno. Just feel like its a lifelong skill.. And probably can't rent cars on weekend? #justthinking

GREAT! Electricity is backkk.. Finally!! Power ffailure-d twice! See how much of a bless it is to live in spore etc. Ohyes u bet I'll be thankful for the first few days when I'm back in spore and then I'll treat everything for granted again ._.

This could be one of the many reasons why I liked travelling or leaving spore.. I get to experience things I don't and be reminded by how lucky I was. Then seeing how dad and mum slog their guts out. Many times. I wanted to give them a hug but I held back. I dno how to react. Really. But it sets as a trigger. As a reminder that how much they've worked. How much they loved me and how much I'm loving them back in my own way in the future.

As for my sister. I always feel bad and guilty for not being by her side guiding her during her puberty stages. Not that she has grown up alrd. But there's limited things I can do. Cause for so many years. I wasn't exactly part of her life. Maybe that's how my dad and mum feels too. Oh well :/

Damnnnnn this irritating pimple on my nose for weeks!!-.-

Time to sleep. Shall finish secret garden tmr! And I got mentalist and criminal mind to try catching. Hehe. Nites(:

selfish or sell meat?

Some photos to share before boarding up the plane. Not trying to be lor suo but thanks so much for min and monster for sending me off. appreciate lots lots

the airport internet so cek ar... only allow 15min usage.. im down with 10min left to type!! and i feel so sad now cause im wearing my old tee and it feels tight at my arm area... ):

MUST BE DUE TO WP TRNGS AND NOW I GOT FATFAT ARMS. WAHHHHHH T_T




presenting fiona the shrek's wife aka ogre and jiao min (smirks*)



the vball guy extra de, lol. the one at bottom left. This our whole CSC cluster. (Y)



got the chalet feel rightttt! SAY YES!


oh lastly, Carinn!!^^ the siaocharbor.


uncle just PMS-ed this morning and i feel so innocent. so somewhere and somehow, im glad that im leaving tonight, sometimes i will wonder how izit feel like to really drop off everything and just move on to a new town. must be hard isnt it?

i always wonder how big the world is and how many different lives we are leading. you see. some girls our age. eg snsd. is a big kpop star. while some others are worrying abt not eating enough, how big the world is. probably this moment im blogging and a child could be dead due to some unknown reasons. ahh... wonders of life.

anyw im suppose to post abt fats and jo's meetup. i was amused by th accusation by fats saying that i've changed. how izit i've changed and how bad did it get? i just probably learned how to see things in a different manner and letting myself have an easier life. instead of hoping for perhaps an expectation or sth to happen. i killed the possibility. i mean what for i make my own life miserable? sigh

meet up with jo was nice. cause i really missed how close we used to be or how close wheelpower used to be. maybe the changes are expected but perhaps too fast to be seen. but whatever it is. move on !!

not sure if im able to blog in bali but i'll try. cya guys 2 weeks later. uh oh. gotta poo poo now. hehe XDD

Crazy Little Expedition (CSC ver)

I am back from camp! early dismissal i suppose, sent my grandma to airport. her timing cant be anymore accurate. and now that the camp has ended. im really sad that i cant go for CSC camp..

csc represent community service cluster. whereby we consists of wheelpower club, rotaract club, red cross youth, hi-club, leo club, environmental ranger club, BB primers, and i dont know if i left out any of it. Basically its individual CCAs but we come tgt as one to plan for certain events and also we are under the same teacher advisor. so yepp. i pretty tink that Mr DY has done a real good job in that. he kinda planned to host 4 meetings in a year or sth so that we can bond.

and so i went for the cca leader expedition, its basically CLE camp. all the Ps and VPs of the CCA groups. ALL. in which NP has abt 100+ CCAs attending the camp. there we will be further separated. but im kind of proud of my cluster, cause no matter what we always stick tgt. esp durring eating time and breaks. but we were also separated into 3 groups to take turns to go for each seminar.

AND SO. i wanna exclaim and shout to the world out loud so much that i think that the camp was awesome and fun and etc. its due to many many interesting peopo and characters there. i supposedly found a friend whom i can really clicked well with. Carinn. and then Fiona- who is shrek's wife. once we talk, we will argue(but its jokingly manner) and Hui Ling-shinyin feel alike girl. and some others who are super interesting as well. but kinda these 3 peopo can make me laugh like maddddd. ohya.. jiaomin looks like wanting in a way too. #justsaying

so its the first time that i find a camp quite slack. okay maybe cause rc camp very hiong. and then first time i felt how it felt like to be playing running man. we had this round whereby we need to complete 5stations in 200min, one is mass skipping rope. TOTALLY REMINDED ME OF RUNNING MAN!!^^V and the feeling of success is sweet!

well. the camp is so so so fun cause im finally allowed to talk cock. to talk totally without tinking if it will or might bluntly hurt others cause basically all of us will laugh it off. it was realy nice. to laugh so so so so much. i think these 2days of laughters could be equivalent to 1 week of laughter i had at home. we even laughed so much that we couldnt sleep!!

of course the main highlight is the gala dinner. whereby all of us had to wear formal and we were taught the traditional couple dance. unfortunately, my partner was not really the guy i prefer in a way. HE'S ... okay nvm. okay no offence!! but oh well. however i did notice this guy who's charismatic in a wayyyy. okay, #justsaying. and we had the clubbing dance as well. which whereby from there you can know who's the actual clubber. but who cares!LOL

oh the amount of nicknames we gave to each other is a mountainful. and i kinda promised that after i come back from bali, will organise a k session or sth with them! yahoooo. i think we can totally form a band, we were singing out so loud at any songs played in the loft, which i had nv tried that beforee. well. my clique peopo listens to diff genres of music and they dont sing out loud one lor. not referring to huimin and tan mei wen pls. xiexie(:

btw somewhere in between there's a bimbo club.. which they recruited me. okay canz. cause i have no looks but got brains so i kinda dropped out of the application. LOL!!

shit sia. i think im zi high-ing in this post. then started chatting alot with Carinn, i really do think communications,or such chatting sessions are really good cause it just bonds peopo. AND WE FOUND SOME STUFFS WE HAVE IN COMMON. okaycanz.

slept for 2h, woke up at 5+am to leave the loft to proceed to fetch my grandma. it will be great if i have car actually but i dont tink im able to afford. but somehow somewhere i feel like im a running man guest who disappeared out of nowhere! hahahaahahah.

i think im really too tired. crash a while and mayb meeting jo later. anneyong!:D

i hope i can upload some pics and talk abt meet up with fats!
im officially left with tonight and tmr to pack my bali luggage. #WIN


我觉得上天有时很作弄人，又有时是很公平的。它关掉了门却又会开了另外一扇窗。原来与其执着在不曾拥有的，倒不如庆幸自己拥有的，因为你的拥有不见得是别人的拥有。如果可以我愿意尝试，只怕带来的只是空欢喜一场。哪怕这样，也要尝试。但会不断提醒自己若是时候放手，就该如此。好的东西是值得等待的，因为它是时间的证明。

我想我可以等了。

For my little snail

Blogging here using itouch.. I have so much to do aft exams but so little time. Maybe cause im working. And as usual im working. Went for meeting today which lasted one and half h. Tmr another meeting. Argh sianzz.

I hope that someone can fix me right now. Cause im so screwed ):

Just the usual stuffs to say to my little snail. Thanking her for everything and oh well. Snail isnt actually her nickname given by me. So wait for that happen! Its always when i need her she'll be there. Providing a proved to be not too bad advice for me. Then we'll gossip and share stuffs. I just felt that as one grows up. U will be giveb even more n much choices and then u will learn to make the choice and stick to it, whether you like it a not. This feeling intensifies as i grew older.

Ughhhhhhh im oldddd T_T

Sidetracking. Dont you find it amusing to see someone who changes to another person whom he or she claimed that he/she wont turned to. Or one who actually so against it now becoming to accept it and eventually became part of it? I did ask myself and almost lost my track n became part of the category. Which im lucky i didnt.

I keep guessing that the prob is i cared too much abt you. Maybe if i cared lesser, things wouldnt seem so serious. Its got to do with the degree of concern. And yes uh. I still love you no matter whattt

And to my little snail. Pls grow up happily and live life to the fullest. I will be watching n pei-ing you til the enddd. SARANGHAEEEE <3

爱

刚看完了爱 绝对不是台湾的连续剧啊。烦死了！但不错看，虽然没比那些年精彩但好看 最重要的是 这地球原来是需要爱来转动 不管如何 不管何时 而爱又是什么？ 没人能给谁一个绝对的答案 大概就是这样 所以 才更可贵！

其实也不知道自己是怎么了 没了勇气和你说话 然后再看着身边个个朋友的恋情 明明就不适合 但却坚持在一起。可能我比任何人都希望身边的朋友开心 所以更想让他们看清。尽管如此，既然没恋人 那么就把满满的爱分散给朋友们吧！哈哈

大家有空去看这部电影吧！！！(:

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have been working for the past two days and jogged ytd, saw someone's dog ran away and went to dip at mudbath at construction for lifts. the dog ran from the park and the owner was so anxious. wanted to help but realised dun nid to. oh well. the leash broke. makes me really tempted to have a dog. someone who's there for me, someone whom i can take care of. tho i always say i'll get one when i grow up, i kinda doubt so. cause i'll be so busy working and stuffs. where's the time for my doggy? ):

busy finding time to pack my ipod song list, downloading taeyeon's songs and watching running man.. its toughhh cause i've got so much to do.. going back bali soon in abt 3 weeks time and i need to find time to get the stuffs my families wan.

need to get a haircut badly but cant seem to find a suitable hairdresser. aigo ):

and need to get replacements for all my cards. #sian. spending nearly $150 for all the lost items. #suay. okay shld stop complaining. but i really damn suay lahhh.zzzz

last week, went out with erjie to buy stuffs. its suppose to be a get tgt + study and we ended up going shopping. haha. yepp. erjie shopped for JJ's valentine's shoes. so sweeeeeettt. and JJ liked it! hehe got + my taste and opinion okayyy! and brought her to Jimmy Monkey cafe. disappointed cause it wasnt as good as expected and so we went to the Ben&Jerry's to talkkkk. missed her alrd! talked so much so much to her.. it was really a good catch up (:

and the next day, celebrating jacq's birthday. suay min miissed the le toile cafe. too bad no luck, next time bring u there ok!! hahahaahaah. it was again another short catch up except jacq being really quiet.. ohwell. what to do. she's same pattern one.

and the rest of the days have been studying like dog, exception of working for two days. oh manz. these two days working life is really horrible. never been so tired before. still remb ytd i was running a one man show. and today i took care of the bar. quoted from jeck "earning kbox's money is not easy manz" INDEED. lol. but yea. i'll still stick on, as for how long. im realy not sure, only know that im really enjoying it. somehow.

tmr going out with yao to sing k! finally after so longggg. hehehehe. and sunday's bike rally. awesomely excitinggggg. ^^

FEELING OF FREE AS A BIRD IS GREATTTTT. but well. there comes the regrets when i get back my results. damn it still dont get why cant i balance the balance sheet in e end ):

sometimes i wonder when will it be my time. but then again i think it will be long. cause i found ah jing when i was 17 and found the job that i liked at 19. so if waiting's all i have to do. i'll gladly do so. til i find the right person all over again. cause feelings so impt that there's no one i can cheat. the heart knows best.

meanwhile. kpop to bring me lots of loveeeee!:D

Time to sleep nights!

suaykia92

its a series of misfortunate events and through all these, i came to understand certain stuffs. about how the nature works about how things work.. sadly to say. luck has not been with me and alot of things has not been with me but i chose to see things at the most dark point of view but yet not losing my vigour. please let me know if u understand the above sentence.

so

I FREAKING FUCKING LOST MY IC, EZ-LINK CARD and STUDENT CARD.

IC- been with me since sec3. ez-link-since last yr april. student card- april and awaiting to be activated for the clubroom.

I WANTED TO SAY FUCK MY LIFE. SERIOUSLY. for the past few years. i haven been doing any bad deeds mayb my mouth is jian but other than that. i swore watever i did was not against my conscious and u know what? this is what i get.

no, all i wanted to say was. if u dont want me to have a good life. why not the next moment when i step out of my house u just get a car to bang me down? why not? and let me endure such lives. im sick of everything here. whatever i have here. be it i have it or not. just let me die? plus i have no bf or children or pet, its the best way to end. why do u wan to let me suffer? im beginning to believe kindness doesnt beget kindness.it was just a wishful thinking of many others.

so i went to amk interchange but to no avail. and wanted to make a police report. waited for an hour plus to realise that loss if ic doesnt require a police report but an ica report. i believe that one day if singapore really came to any harm. the police cant do anything. and im serious. singapore just gonna die. great game.

after being angsty for the whole day. since i woke up, forced myself to go to work and now here i am typing this post. cause im too angry to in fact to think anything much. but i will have to do my graph later. the more i think the more its not making any sense. i just feel that its unfair. really. it has always been.

it was before i realised its karma. i agreed to accept starhub's complimentary scv channels for 3months. i kind of rejected it at first til the person say. its free for just 3 months and afterwards if you dont want it, just return the box set to us. its fair deal. when i gain the scv box(soon to be) the moment i agreed, its alrd been set that im gonna lose my ic, ez link and student card. and u know whats the most unfair deal. me gaining a scv box but losing 3items.

if i ever got those things back. i really really swear im gonna take so damn good care of it. but i really doubt so and i have the 'aftermath' to do. report of loss, doing the remakes. most of all. bringing passport for exams cause its my only form of identification. im a jokeee -.-

so after talking to you and a few. i kind of felt much better, thankyou.

so from angry... now become

sad..

until im learning to accept how things are now. but give me a week's time ? a week of hope perhaps? and oh yes. $100 bucks for loss of ic remaking of 1months time. $7 bucks for student card? and 3wks worth of concession. GONE JUST LIKE THAT POOF. and the polaroid with asc and yuxian ): ): ):

let me just have some peace before im ready to go on. sigh.

OH AND HAPPY BIRTHDAY FEB BABIES:

JACQUELINE WONG ; EDNA NEO ; ROCHELLE GOH

:DDD

self reminder: next post:

-date with erjie

-jacq's bdae celeb

-things to do aft exams

these memories will last, for eternity

“过去”是一个值得去的好地方，但绝对不是一个可以长久逗留的地方。

it's true. i was just considering to blog in chinese or not but lazyyyy. its so true that few days ago, i wanted to go back to amkss, but didnt. probably due to the fact that last fri i went back and last sun was gathering at Ms Tay's. it pointless cause even if i wannaa go back, it will be different, totally different feel, environment. most importantly, all those dearly loved ones are no longer there. so whats the point?

whats the point of clinging on when its not the same any longer? move on.

and i have definitely not much of a problem of moving on. Living here had taught me such life skills well. from p6 to sec4 till now poly. and in future, workplace, uni. whats more?

just sometimes, i wish time wouldnt pass so fast.
我们老得太快 却聪明得太迟

laughing at the sentence cause it meant so much. alot much more. time passed too fast and we learnt too slow. yes. we learn when we lose em.

just, not emo-ing but thinking. maybe abit. i dunno what and how to say because im reaching year2 soon, mean the year 3s are leaving. Well, they are such a fun bunch and i'll probably miss them tons. kinda wished that they wouldnt leave, but they gotta move on. and thats life. but im glad that i met them no matter what.

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these past days have been busy with tests. from mon til ytd. and next wk another 3 tests. this is what u get when the sem is ending. Honestly speaking, cant believe i had such a sianz cny of tests. zzz. but cant wait for holidays to comeeeee.

had meeting with mr Dy ytd night.kinda cool since i've not actually had meetings with tchers. fresh i would say. sometimes what i detest the most is SDAR for trying to butt into everything too much, this cannt that cannt. my rc life is so much more better. at least i can do what i wan. and then went for trng.

i kinda starting to wonder how much more i could endure. im not complaining or what but once i reached home ytd night. aunt nagged at me for not calling singtel. i had the fact that i had to do everything. every single thing. and when i failed to do it well etc. here comes the nagging.

my life pretty much sucks if not for my friends. sigh. quit talking abt them, just hope i could move out someday. thats all. without the expense of spending too much of cause and taking care of myself. oh, mayb the thing i love most about my home is my bed and aunt's super delicious cooking after a long day.

Recently i found out that im doomed. because im getting so used to my poly classmates, remember when i said out frequency dont hit? it kinda didnt matter now cause im just used to them being beside me. and in turn, the used to be v quiet me
in class, starting to wreck havoc now.. its true okay. i dont talk alot in class one^^

hehehe. proud thing is, influenced them to read about horoscope stuffs. yes. its definitely just for fun stuffs when im bored. i do believe in it but certain extent and certainly not obsessed to it, just amazed at how accurately the horoscope sayings could describe me! and of course, had some good laugh! haha.

last day of snw today and did parafan. super fun. its like also called parajump? well. once u start from top and then u just come down. its best when you jump. which i did. screamed my lungs out. when i reached the top i was like, can i jump? and when i was at the edge. i didnt dare to! but jumped in the end. it will be great if its taller!! felt like committing suicide! hehe

next time got chance, will try flying fox, bungee jump,cliff jump, jetty jump and parachuting. okay, thats lot! oh. wanted to visit all the exotic themeparks too.

quite a lengthy post but probably gotta wait some times before i blog next time, guai kia gotta study y'know? :D

and im still a newbie in tumblrrrr.
oh! cant wait for sat's study dateee. hehehehehehe.

BIG FAMILY OF MINE

I knew that today would be a good day without doubt. it was indeed.

Nothing beats than staying together with this big family of mine. It felt like a mini gathering with the photo reviews. ohwell. we looked back at all the secondary school life photos. awesomeness. few times whereby Ms Tay so agitated with us: "HOW CAN U ALL TAKE PICTURES DURING BIO LESSONS?!" "TAKE DURING SSRP SOMEMORE!!" Funny. and cool. with V replying:"WE STILL MANAGED TO SCRAPE THROUGH" hahahaha. agreed much.

but anyway wanna thank ms tay for inviting us over and her mum who cooked truckloads for us. hahahaha. we also did well for finishing her snacks. it seemed like so much memories in the past. secondary school days still da best. all our nonsense contained. sealed in my memory box (:

ohya. first time stayed so long at ms tay's house. cool~ then we went to shida's house. i feel very bad cause i left earlier w H and J and then all guys started to leave. errr... i needa get home to study.. nvm nvm.

and ytd i reached home at 1am+ SO TIRED.

okay. its just a short post. am gonna continue studying!!

阿京言：拼了！！！:D

PS: still happy with the new found friend^^

难得可贵

庆幸 身上的伤 不再清晰

"有一些东西错过了、就一辈子错过了、人是会变的、守住一个不变的承诺、却守不住一颗善变的心、有时候、执着是一种负担、放弃是一种解脱、人没有完美、幸福没有一百分、知道自己没有能力一次拥有那么多、又何苦要求那么多。"