yearning for

wanna be as free as a bird

you know its like. after so many days of travelling outside. i dont expect much but neither do i wan more. and back to the same old problem. sometimes things will be much easier if i live outside alone by myself. and then my friends would say. you wouldnt like to live outside alone. yet actually i do. and the urge and feelings just gets stronger as i grew older.

sigh. i wonder how much longer i could endure :/

sometimes i thot of the person who thot would give me much more happiness than ever. but actually, it was the opposite. im not being resentful here but sometimes i cant help but feeling it that way. and then my friend would say. as times goes by, i will feel better. ohyes i will

talking about the future house im living in. i will have 3 rooms. one for ah jing's collection, one for study room and one more bedroom for me and my future doggy^^ the room for ah jing will be the one filed with all collection of her. thats super duper cool when i think about it :D

super zonked out once again. slept 2 hours ytd. cabbed home just now. wasted. im like following the poly-sters trend now. little bit little bit jiu cab, heart pain siol.

and i'll continue to work hard! sometimes right, its not that i dont wan to depend on a person. but somehow, depending on ownself has been the way it is and fate chose to give me a hard patch to cross.

i hope i'll stay strong

PS: up next to blog about

1. red cross camp

2. kor's chalet

3 studies